This is me, turning 24 next month…
As of now, my family and I moved back to Nueva Ecija and left the apartment we were leasing for five years to be exact at Manggahan, Pasig City. We moved out the same day of my graduation, how sad right?
I didn’t even enjoy the whole ceremony, I mean yes I tried to focus on the actual event but my mind shifted to what’s about to happen later on, that bittersweet feeling of moving out from that apartment.
I prayed for that apartment and had a vision in 2016 where I vividly saw the actual door with a carved letter “G”. And it turns out, when we moved to Manggahan, that same letter “G” was the Unit No./Letter of our personal space we were leasing that time.
Then, we left. My brothers decided to leave.
Sometimes I realize, maybe the very purpose of our stay in Manggahan was really for my benefit to get closer to my university in college, and now that I am done. Right after I graduated, that was the very same day of moving out from that place.
Baka na-serve na niya yung purpose niya, baka yung answered prayer ko dati hindi na makakabuti sa bagong season o path na tatahakin ko at ng pamilya ko sa mga susunod na araw.
Life at 23?
Life has been very sad, confusing and uncertain lately. Some people in our household got infected of COVID. It was only Tita Flor and I who doesn’t have any symptoms yet, hoping that we are not asymptomatic as well.
I’ve been anxious, worried, hoping I would remain covid-free and healthy. I am also looking and waiting for employment particularly in Advertising Agency.
Ilang beses na ako nag-send ng mga applications, of course wala pa rin. Minsan yung nakakainis sa employment dito sa Pilipinas, ang taas ng qualifications mostly with 2-year experience ang hanap pero ang salary entry-level pa rin.
I had an interview last week with one Ads agency, I don’t know if I’ll be accepted or ghosted. Sana, sana mapili ako, sana magka-trabaho na ako. Para mabago ko na yung sitwasyon namin ng pamilya ko. Sa dami ng sinendan ko, dalawa lang sila nag-ask ng interview. Pero yung Ads agency yung mas gusto ko.
Sana matanggap yung Job Application ko, para mabago ko na yung sitwasyon sa bahay, hindi na mas-stress si Mama at ako pag sumisigaw o sinusumpong si Lola. At syempre, nang hindi ma-trauma si Seth dahil malayo na kami, naka-bukod na kami.
Mukhang tahimik eh, hindi ko alam kung naiinip lang ba ako o baka kapag umabot pa hanggang 7 Days… Susubukan ko yung Internship Experience dun sa Ads Agency na gustong-gusto ko. Ewan ko kung nagusuhan ng HR ng Seven A.D yung usapan namin dalawa last week.
Hindi ko alam, nag d-doubt ba siya sa akin na hindi ko kayanin yung position dahil Management major ako at more on Marketing side yung educational background ko, dahil ba kulang ako sa Ads working experience o dahil nag a-ambition lang ako? Pero kahit may uncertainty, umaasa pa rin ako na sana matanggap ako, sana makapasok ako sa isang Ads Agency, sana makuha koyung position.
If not, then it’s okay. I’ll be patiently looking for something that will say “YES” to me. Just one “yes” is all I need. That one “yes” coming from my ideal company which is an Advertising Agency that creates and produces TV Commercials and Digital Ads.
Sana makahanap ako.
Sana mahanap ako.
Sana tanggapin ako.
Ellen Lisondra 