Work Setup

I just want to write all these down before my thoughts fade away.

It’s 10 p.m. as I’m writing this, and the rain is pouring heavily outside because of Typhoon Kristine.

This morning, I woke up with a feeling of heaviness and blues about going to work. It’s been happening a lot lately…

I asked myself why I’ve been feeling this way over the past year. As I reflected, I remembered something…

Last weekend, I spent my birthday at the National Museum with my friend Angela Besa, and we had a conversation about work setups. She mentioned that she prefers working on-site because her flexible schedule allows her to maintain a good work-life balance.

This week, I was talking with my subordinate at Ecora, Ella Sindayen, about how I’ve been feeling tired of working on-site. I casually asked her what her ideal work setup would be. She said she prefers working on-site as well, because it helps her feel more productive and focused. Plus, she doesn’t have a proper workspace at home, which is why she favors working on-site.

Then suddenly I realized,

May mga tao pala na ganon, noh? Mas preferred nila yung working-on site kasi mas feel nilang productive sila sa part na yun. But the thing is, they love it. Hindi mabigat sa kanila.

And there I learned my lesson,

As a person, I can make decision and choose which working setup works best for me.

I have the will to pursue another direction and find opportunities that offer work-from-home opportunities.

It became my unconscious mindset, not to become “maarte” & “mapili” sa trabaho brought by my parents and the people around me, kung ano yung nandyan pag-tiisan

Pero hindi pala maganda ‘yon, kung ia-apply mo yun sa lahat ng bagay.

Parang nagkaroon ako ng scarcity mindset, instead of growth mindset. Na kung ano yung ilapag sa harapan ko, yun pagtiisan ko yun because there’s no available resources/opportunity outside of it.

kahit alam mo sa sarili mo mabigat na sayo,

kahit alam mong di bagay sayo.

Pag-tiisan.

Mali pala ‘yon, yung pag-tiisan yung maling bagay at hindi naman babagay sayo.

It took me sometime and uncomfortable situations that made me realize I have this kind of mindset.

It’s really my deep-longing to be working from home, but I thought binibigay lang yung opportunity na yun sa ibang tao, na-swertihan lang yung ganon.

Na pili lang o kaunti lang yung employers/company na nagbibigay ng ganon.

Akala ko kaunti lang.

I chose to be working on-site because, I’m still at my early stage of life to be working in the corporate world meeting with different people.

Kaninang umaga pag-gising ko, the reason why I hate Monday and Morning Blues before going to work is because much of my time is getting wasted on traffic, commuting, and then I only had few hours of downtime when I arrived home in the evening. Considering that the job that I’m currently doing can be done at home. Realizing there are people out there, doing the same work I am doing and yet they have the time freedom for their work & personal life.

Na-realize ko din na, kapag nasa corporate ka talaga may mga employers na kukuriputin ka, base sa years of experience and skills mo. Parang I spent my 12hours in a day that combines my prepping + working hours for that company, and yet their hands were so tight giving off the right amount of salary I am worthy of.

Today I watched a random video on youtube from my office and it says,

You can demand more and have a better one.

And that hits me so hard. That phrase made me question my behavior and my current mindset that led me to accept situations where I compromised my career value & relationship value more than what I should’ve deserve.

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Habang nag-tutupi ako ng mga damit ko napa-isip ako,

At the end of the day, mabait pa rin naman ang Diyos. He knows the depth of your heart, all your inmost desires. Katulad kay Moses back in the old times, God still had appreciated his efforts & hard work leading the whole Israelite going to the Promise Land. Nagkamali man siya, at hindi pinayagan makapasok dun sa lugar na pinangako para sa kanila… At some point, pinayagan pa rin siya ng Diyos makita o masilayan man lang yung bagay na pilit niyang pinag-hirapan ng ilang taon.

Kung hindi man para sayo, mabait pa rin naman ang Diyos. Ipagkaloob sayo na kahit masilayan mo lang yung taong ‘yon, malapit man o malayuan.

Mabait pa rin naman ang Diyos, pagbibigyan ka pa rin naman no’n sa simpleng hiling mo.

All those efforts and genuine intentions are noticed by God.

I remember, that’s the same miracle that healed Tita Flor last October, through God’s mercy. All her selfless efforts and genuine intentions were noticed by God.

Remember Leah? The one who experienced unrequited love from her husband, Jacob.

All the lonely nights from that unrequited love were noticed by God.

Yet, God still made her fruitful despite of everything. He blessed her with seven children.

In Israel at that time, the number of children someone had signified how blessed they were.

When her fourth son, Judah, was born, she named him after the word “praise.”

That’s the moment she realized there’s more to life than unrequited love.

It’s a reminder that you can still be fruitful after a heart-breaking season. 🙂

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Baka kaya yun yung dahilan kung bakit hindi ko ma-let go let-go yung idea of me and Jeremiah would still be together.

Kasi all this time meron pala akong Scarcity Mindset.

Having that fear that I won’t have the same opportunity to meet someone like him anymore.

Baka kaya yun yung dahilan kung bakit hindi ako maka-close ng deal sa paghahanap ng kliyente before para sa digital marketing agency na sinet-up ko,

Because I had that mindset, that there’s only few ones and some are already taken already.

Baka kaya yun yung dahilan kung bakit nag-settle ako sa on-site na trabaho kahit alam kong ayoko ng ganitong work-setup,

Because I thought I should’ve experienced the worst first, baka kako dun pa lang ako maging deserving to earn such opportunity.

A completely wrong mindset.

I learned my lesson now;

I can demand more and have a huge income in this life.

I can make decisions and turn to a new path where work from home opportunities is available

Malawak ang mundo at may oras pa ako, makakilala ng mga bagong tao along the way.

Malawak ang market, may tatanggap din sa mga service offerings ko. 🙂

Hindi ako papayag na hanggang dito lang ako, gagawin ko lahat ng makakakaya ko at kontrolado ko. Naniniwala ako sa potensyal ko, at sa lawak ng potensyal na meron yung mundong ito. 🙂

Usad na.

Oras na para umusad.